Wow, what a day yesterday ended up being. I would like to say that I just haven’t had time to thank all of you, but I can’t. I have had enough time. I would like to say that our internet was down, but it wasn’t. I would like to find some excuse that I would find acceptable for not getting this done sooner, but I can’t. I have been at a loss for thoughts, words, or actions. I really don’t know what to say to tell you all how I feel. The only thing I can figure out to do is to give you somewhat of a testimony to what you all mean to us.

I never could have guessed October 9, 2011 how my life was going to change the next day. I am generally shy and quiet and would most often just get things done by myself and not ask for any help. Being naïve to the world is a young mans folly, and thinking that I could get this done by myself was just dumb. I soon realized that this was simply not the case. I am simply not big enough for this.

I know that there is a lot of junk on Facebook, but it has been a real blessing for me. Anytime I need to get something out that is happening with Tammy I just post it on here and I can reach so many people at one time it saves me a lot of time. I often wonder though what people think about me posting it all on here. I really don’t worry too much about it, because I know that some of you genuinely want to know how Tammy is doing, but I want you all to know what you guys do for me. There is always a lot of comments about how inspiring we are and we really appreciate that, but from my perspective you all have it wrong. We are being inspired by you. I can’t really explain this very well, but we are like the very tip of a mountain. We are able to keep soaring in the clouds because we have such a strong base to support us. I read every comment that anyone writes, read every person who “liked” our post. Most of the time I do it a couple of times, and every once in a while I go back and read them again. You all have no idea how much support and strength I get from knowing that you all care about Tammy. You have no idea how much I feel your love in my soul, I am able to be who I am because of you all. We are able to keep doing what we need to do because of all of you. You make the Impossible, possible and there is no words that I can say for you to understand how much that means to us. We are so blessed in this life.

Before Tammy started this clinical trial in October I was really feeling the pressure of it all. Knowing the schedule we were going to have to keep was dragging me down. I could simply not figure out where all of the time and resources were going to come from. One long night I could not put it away and finally realized once again that this was so much bigger than I am. I just stopped and said, “I can not do this alone, if this is supposed to happen then it will happen.” Did all of the stress stop, no, but I knew deep down that everything was going to be ok. Pretty soon letters and cards started arriving, envelopes appeared on our kitchen counter, people wanted to have benefits for us. People would walk by and shake my hand and leave a gift and keep walking. I received calls and messages from people all over giving us their love and holding us up when we were beginning to get weary. I realized that sometimes we are not in control. Love is all around us, sometimes we just have to open our heart and it will find us. Thank you for opening your hearts to us. We are humbled by your kindness. We are humbled by your generosity. We are so blessed in this life.

And Jabez called on the God of Israel saying, “Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!” So God granted him what he requested. 1Chronicles 4:10