They say a picture is worth a thousand words.  What if we could see the rest of the picture, the outer edges.  What if we saw what flashed beside us, walked behind us, crawled under our feet, or flew over our heads.  What if we just got a glimpse of what was to come. 

I walk in wonder as I think about these questions.  This is not my usual train of thought but since last night that is all I can think about.  Seconds, minutes, the blink of an eye, if only, and why, yesterday started out ordinary.  Good morning, is the coffee ready, we are out of soap, I love you, and see you tonight.  As of this morning, I long for ordinary. What if I walk a little faster, not take that last bite, admire the sunrise for just one more second. What if i run that last mile, look into her eyes one more time,  linger one more second on that one last kiss. Seconds, minutes, eternities that change people’s lives. 

What if I saw it coming?  Would I change it?  Would I slow down that one instant in time that would change everything?  All it would take was that one turn of my head. One step, one heartbeat, one glance in the right direction, One instant of clarity in the midst of chaos, and I regain ordinary.

Now what was ordinary is far away and I am suddenly thrust into a time that is, unordinary.  That sounds so bad, unordinary.  What does that mean, I AM UNORDINARY. Have I changed somehow?  Now that I think about it I really liked ordinary.  Sure I would change some things, but it really wasn’t that bad.  If only I had sped up, slowed down, changed something, for heaven’s sake, if I would have just mowed the lawn.  I would still be      ordinary.

If I could have seen in all directions at the same time I could have made a difference.  If I could have read that guys mind and seen through her eyes, nothing would have changed, once again, ordinary.  I am human, so now I am Unordinary. Unordinary, I dread that word.  What does it mean?  I looked it up. Unordinary means “being out or the ordinary.”  Thanks Merriam for the clarification.

So Now I am an unordinary man in an ordinary world. Where do I go from here?  What are my choices?  As I am looking through my hats I decide on two to make my choice from.  The Scientist or the philosopher will give me my answer.  If I choose the scientist then there will probably be a bunch of questions to ask and a bunch of answers to prove.  Probably a few studies that I could look up, na I think I will go with the philosopher.  He says you have two choices, lay down or stand up.

It is a funny thing about ordinary.  No matter what choice I make now I will never make it back out of the un- category. If I choose to lay down then everyone will say how unordinary I am for not putting up any kind of fight.  Then, if I choose to stand up they will say, “wow he has handled this so unordinarily it is amazing.” What’s a guy to do?

So I guess I’m going on as unordinary, so what kind will I choose.  If I lay down what will happen.  The pain is gone, time doesn’t stop, the world keeps going around, the fear goes away, no guilt, no anxiety, no responsibility, and um no happiness, no love, no one to care about, and um um No Life.  Well that kind of sucks, the last one is kind of a kicker for a check in the no box.  If I stand up what will happen. Well I guess time still will not stop and the world will keep going around.  If I was a betting man I’m guessing there will be a whole lot of pain.  Guilt deserved or not will be a part of life for a while.  Anxiety, check that box for sure. Responsibility, yep.  Happiness, love, someone to care about, whoa hold on now.  What is life without all of these things I listed?  Life means nothing if you’re not prepared to live it.  Living it means that I am prepared to fight through the pain,  accept some sadness to be filled with happiness, Love someone deeply and to be loved in return, care for someone and in turn have them care about me.  So if I choose to stand up what is so unordinary about me?    I guess because now I do see life through a new set of eyes. The more life you live the more you see in life.  I am unordinary because I am so young to have learned this lesson.  I choose to stand up.